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Thankfulness & God's Faithfulness

I'm so very thankful for this year.  God has always been so faithful to me.  He's protected me, loved me, and given my joy in hard times.  I remember this time last year, I did not want to celebrate any Holidays.  I did not want to celebrate Thanksgiving or Christmas.  I had a heart that wasn't ready to move on or let go.  I had a stubborn heart, one that wasn't willing to listen or heal.  I had a broken heart, one that was not allowing me to be thankful for yet another year.  Even then God provided ways for me to heal and the space I needed, in providing opportunities to stay home for Thanksgiving and to be traveling all through Christmas and New Years.  God was so good to me.  Today I look back and think of just how far God has taken me.  I'm thankful He protected me from a very bad situation and gave me healing in that.  I'm thankful He took me far away from two really hard circumstances and allowed me to start over.  I look back over this last year and the h

True JOY

So, I have a fantasy with romance, everything.  Novels, movies, etc...  It's been consuming lately, so much so that I've decided to take a break for a while.  I hope this will give me time to grow.  Closer to my family and to my Lord.  I hope this time will prove to help with things I've struggled with-jealousy, anger, and just getting my emotions under control.  Is that even possible for a female?  I guess I shall see.

There is so much in life, I feel like we all hope or more like expect it to be a happy roller coaster.  We see things on TV, Youtube, social media that yell at us that each person around us are truly happy and content, but then inside we all battle with things that most of us don't even understand.  We go through heart ache, hard decisions, expectations, and it's all a, well... roller coaster.

Lately I've been asking where I  find true joy.  I thought I would find it in my situations in life, but you see I'm not quite where I thought I wanted to be.  I don't have my life figured out, a goal towards a degree, a job that I thought I would have, my own place. (All worldly expectations, I should add) I'm not quite sure what I thought I would be doing at nineteen, but I'm sure this was not it.  So I've asked where do I find true JOY?  Defiantly not in me or in my situation.  I know true joy only comes from the Lord, but what does that look like?

You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore. Psalm 16:11

Each day when I wake up I want to thank the Lord for everything.  For His saving grace, my family and my friends.  I want to thank Him for my home and the comfort He provides.  I am grateful for my jobs (no matter how stressful they may be) and school.   And in each area, there is even more to be thankful for.  The opportunity to work with my dad.  The ability to walk.  The freedom to worship and speak about God.

I'm grateful for this roller coaster of a life.  At least I pray that I will truly be joyful in Him!


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